she wonders why the darkness came
with a veil white where she
once knew him, once knew them
a shadow of the devil’s curse
in this moment time stands still
words crossing words mixed hearts
the lust of being alive
but she asks, where am I
an empty room of faceless shadows

I always loved you to the mirror she cries
if only I knew you she closes her eyes.

her heart beats on

waiting to die.  - dallas green

Today I got a new Maury Regional mug, with the graduate feature on it.. meaning it tells me exactly how many CCs are left, very awesome.

I havent written in awhile, because im lazy and stupid.  but mostly just the former.

I plan to update again later

but for now, its time

to study

In the Civil War there was a policy of writing your name and address on a paper and putting it in your pocket, so when you died they knew where to mail your body.

One soldier wrote on his paper ‘Today I Died’ and that was all.  He was unknown.

a very poetic ending.

these satellites are failing

our lives detaching

we share nothing now

but embedded ghosts

of the past

we say goodbye

but

i hope

for humanity

I am writing here again.  I am going to try to maintain this with my artwork and such.  I enter the summer semester with 14 hours this coming Tuesday, and we close on our house on Friday.

Very exciting.

skies lit, arms crossed

glimpse at the future

beg for a lover to understand

praise in their heart

lust in their eyes

the one, the two, the other the same

she said goodbye with her breath

she said goodbye with her eyes closed

and one last whoosh of air past her lips

Allow me to exaggerate a memory or two
Where summers lasted longer than, longer than we do
And nothing really mattered except for me to be with you
But in time we all forgot and we all grew

Your melody sounds as sweet as the first time it was sung
With a little bit more character for show
And by the time your father’s heard of all the wrong you’ve done
Then I’m putting out the lantern find your own way back home.

If I’d forgotten how to sing before I’d sung this song
I’ll write it all across the wall before my job is done
And I’ll even have the courtesy of admitting I was wrong
As the final words before I’m dead and gone

You’ve never been so divine in accepting your defeat
And I’ve never been more scared to be alone.
If love is not enough to put my enemies to sleep
Then I’m putting out the lantern find your own way back home

Cheairs Lawn Party! Noelle and I did a chair.  It was sold for a hundred and something dollars. I was told a marine sold it, Noelle and I were more than pleased to hear that it was purchased by someone who truley wanted it for what it was.

Look for another piece next year!

Sitting here, hungry.  Wondering if there is food in my future.

14 hours this summer, 16 hours this fall, overload? I hope not, I have a 3.0 right now and I hope to keep it up.

3.5 would be optimal, but i get straight B’s and its pretty much a ceiling for me.

anyway, today, Id like to mention briefly the three different divisions of our lives.

the purgative, the iluminative, and the unitive stages.

Purgative is the body, Illuminative is Mind, and Unitive is Spirit

Purgative, to abstain from those things that are harmful to the body.

Iluminative, the Soul, the Mind, to pray, to connect with ones-self

Unitive, the Spirit, to be one with others, to be Christlike, to be zen.

By: Joe Elliott

The Book and its Concepts

In Man’s Search for Meaning Viktor Frankl, examines the relationship between human conditioning and the human spiritual dimension of freedom and meaning.  Frankl does not offer religion -only solutions.  He clearly believes that the individual seeking freedom and meaning in their life must connect with some cause beyond themselves, or with some person other than themselves be it spiritual, physical or otherwise.  If he or she is to overcome the “dehumanizing” and “unhealthy” forces of conditioning in physical, social and psychological terms the individual must make the choice to do so.

Frankl also believes that it is the responsibility of the individual to recognize his or her freedom of choice, despite the conditioning circumstances which prevail, and to take action based on that freedom which will transcend that conditioning and lead to a connection with another human being and/or with a cause which gives that person “Meaning.”  He quotes Frederick Nietzsche several times with with quote “He who has a why to live can bear almost any how.”

Frankl was a Jew that was affected by the Holocaust.  He was in many concentration camps and forced to work in a sort of “work release” party, but without the release.  He was spared the death chamber by what seemed to be luck of the draw as far as pretending to be fit for work.  During this time he observed humans in both power-positions and slave-positions, both tortured physically, mentally and sometimes completely at ease with the situation (on both ends of the spectrum.)  In the camps, Frankl demonstrated how man can live with almost no food, no water, and facing inhumane conditions, yet still survive.  He developed the ability to nurture the mind and the soul when he could not nourish the body, learning to appreciate the beauties of art and nature as much as he could in the circumstances.

Some Memorable Quotes:

The last of human freedoms - the ability to choose one’s attitude in a given set of circumstances.

Ultimately, man should not ask what the meaning of his life is, but rather he must recognize that it is he who is asked.

My personal feelings on the book.

I received this book on audio-CD for Christmas, but was completely uninterested in it until I noticed that it was an assignment.  I listened to the entire book - twice.  It is one of the most inspiring books that I have ever engaged in.  The refreshing outlook on life and the possibilities in such a simple concept were so deep and revealing of the human spirit to me that I constantly recommend this book to others.  Frankl is not so much a psychotherapist as he is a philosopher.  He quotes Nietzsche several times throughout the book, and though I have read Nietzsche’s books - I have never applied his concepts so realistically.  Maybe that’s what psychology is.  Maybe it is the application of the philosophy of society and the individual’s mind.

He makes several observations and lists the indicators of the deterioration of the human spirit.  Sure it may be biased because of his situation and the severity of it, but he applied his concepts to all levels, all walks, and as a psychotherapist - tried to be as objective as possible to its applicability to the human lacking appropriate meaning in their life.

He later gives several counseling techniques for how to apply logotherapy (which is what he called his theory.) The techniques were not as much demonstration but more a counseling by way of text for me.  He helped me see a lot of things that I had before.

Viktor Frankl is an amazing man, and has written an amazing book.